We were torn between being impressed and grateful (not to mention amazed) that the specialist would find the time and a bit depressed because no-one ever wants a doctor to want to see them quickly. In the CU every patient … Read More
I volunteered to walk the dog on my own this morning in spite of the rain. I trudged through the fields screaming inwardly, back to my “Oh God, Oh God” interior monologue. I remembered the verse that says that when … Read More
This evening I could barely eat I felt so sick. Husband managed to eat. We must both have been in shock but he seemed better able to deal with it. He’s good at compartmentalising things, not stressing until he has … Read More
Oh God it’s cancer. At least we know. After weeks of tests showing normal this definitely isn’t. We head back to the lift. I’m glad of the lift. I don’t think I could manage the stairs. Could we speak to … Read More
It’s been a long 2 weeks but here we are – waiting again – for an appointment with Dr Inscrutable. This is the NHS and they’re busy but my heart is in my boots as we wait an extra hour. … Read More
Naturally I googled. Bone marrow tests. Mmm. Then I googled ‘anaemia no symptoms’ and came up with something called indolent leukemia. Good grief I hope it’s not that. Why didn’t I google this before?? Why didn’t the GPs pay more … Read More
We knew it wasn’t great when we were given a quick appointment with a haematologist and escorted to the Cancer Unit to see him. Apparently they can fit people in up there – they don’t run to normal schedules. I’m … Read More