Contemplating our Autumn Years
I am finding it hard to pray, to order my thoughts, to slow down long enough. No wonder I lack perspective. I think I tend to run away from prayer when things are tough because when I pray I end … Read More
I am finding it hard to pray, to order my thoughts, to slow down long enough. No wonder I lack perspective. I think I tend to run away from prayer when things are tough because when I pray I end … Read More
Routine appointment for Husband. Except there’s nothing routine about something that effectively tries to guess what the cancer is doing. I would say if the cancer is sleeping or not but that’s not evil enough – it’s lurking, we just … Read More
We’re waiting. That’s tougher than it sounds. I’m not sure if this is the calm before or after this particular storm. Either way the current calm is unnerving. Nothing is happening. But the storm is out there. Things have been … Read More
Today is CT and MRI day, which should be easier than colonoscopy day! At least I can eat and drink normally. The CT is booked straight after the MRI so I’m going to have to drink lots of water, lie … Read More
It’s blood test day, a week since the last one. We’re hopeful. Red cells still 108 (at least they haven’t gone down but it would be lovely if they’d go up) and the platelets are up to 245. Yeahy. Dr … Read More
The day has finally come – up at stupid o’clock, trying to drink coffee where husband can’t see it as he suffers the pre-op fast. He drives to the hospital and we listen to the 60s music we usually listen … Read More
I volunteered to walk the dog on my own this morning in spite of the rain. I trudged through the fields screaming inwardly, back to my “Oh God, Oh God” interior monologue. I remembered the verse that says that when … Read More
This evening I could barely eat I felt so sick. Husband managed to eat. We must both have been in shock but he seemed better able to deal with it. He’s good at compartmentalising things, not stressing until he has … Read More