We made it to France :-). Husband is feeling and looking good, enjoying swimming and sunbathing and clearly benefiting from being out here. We haven’t had any long (or medium!) hikes and he’s pacing himself while swimming but he hasn’t … Read More
One can’t prepare for loss. More than once in my life I’ve been sure I knew what was coming (eg my cancer that wasn’t) and mourned in advance. This overwhelming stress was pointless yet ultimately so good for me. I … Read More
I’m grieving before time. Perhaps that’s inevitable but I think it’s more my faulty thinking. I used to panic Husband would have an accident, now I panic about the lymphoma. There is no evidence to support my fears. This is … Read More
Things got a bit crappier today. We went to the hospital for what we thought would be a routine appointment. I really must learn that no such thing exists when it comes to cancer. We assumed that things would be … Read More
I am so desperately tired and drained, weary to my bones. My ME fatigue seems worse, more deep-rooted these days somehow. I’m running inwardly – I’m not sure from what but it’s exhausting. I’m probably running from husband’s cancer, from … Read More